i think its funny how this universe conspired to gather one soul with another
and how it also conspired to part them
its funny how universe created love,
and how it also created heartbreaks
its funny how universe created life,
and ends it with death
its funny how universe caused us pain,
and just leave us dying without warning
my whole life, i was scared to ever feel pain
the kind of pain that makes me sick to my stomach
the kind of pain that makes me can't breathe, that makes me suffocates
the kind of pain that makes me awake until 5 in the morning
the kind of pain that makes me hard to even speak a word
or to touch my own skin because it fucking hurts
just like the thought of you
but i come to believe that not all first love ends as beautifully as it sounds
mine ended with shit tons of heartbreaks
the kind of heartbreak that makes me shiver
the kind of heartbreak that makes me want to go to sleep and never wake up
god, it hurts
but i know everything must come to and end
there is no such thing as forever, thats utter bullshit
i know everything will go back to the place where it belongs
two years, and i can't even make you feel like home
you said you loved me,
but you don't destroy people that you love, right?
maybe, just maybe
not now, not today
later, when i feel like i'm ready
i will find the love of my life
the kind of love that makes me want to be a better person than i was before
the kind of love that makes me grateful about life
the kind of love that makes me feel butterflies in my stomach, instead of knives in my heart
and i will fall in love, all over again,
the exact same way i fell in love with you
and all the memories will be replaced
and all the wounds will be healed
and meanwhile,
you will turn into sparkle of dust, even tinier than atoms,
and i will forget you.
and i'll live, but you don't
cause you will be filled with all these horror guilts and you will sorry for the rest of your life
and i'll be okay
because i deserve to be okay
and how it also conspired to part them
its funny how universe created love,
and how it also created heartbreaks
its funny how universe created life,
and ends it with death
its funny how universe caused us pain,
and just leave us dying without warning
my whole life, i was scared to ever feel pain
the kind of pain that makes me sick to my stomach
the kind of pain that makes me can't breathe, that makes me suffocates
the kind of pain that makes me awake until 5 in the morning
the kind of pain that makes me hard to even speak a word
or to touch my own skin because it fucking hurts
just like the thought of you
but i come to believe that not all first love ends as beautifully as it sounds
mine ended with shit tons of heartbreaks
the kind of heartbreak that makes me shiver
the kind of heartbreak that makes me want to go to sleep and never wake up
god, it hurts
but i know everything must come to and end
there is no such thing as forever, thats utter bullshit
i know everything will go back to the place where it belongs
two years, and i can't even make you feel like home
you said you loved me,
but you don't destroy people that you love, right?
maybe, just maybe
not now, not today
later, when i feel like i'm ready
i will find the love of my life
the kind of love that makes me want to be a better person than i was before
the kind of love that makes me grateful about life
the kind of love that makes me feel butterflies in my stomach, instead of knives in my heart
and i will fall in love, all over again,
the exact same way i fell in love with you
and all the memories will be replaced
and all the wounds will be healed
and meanwhile,
you will turn into sparkle of dust, even tinier than atoms,
and i will forget you.
and i'll live, but you don't
cause you will be filled with all these horror guilts and you will sorry for the rest of your life
and i'll be okay
because i deserve to be okay
